phil session

I’m feeling pretty drained this morning. i’ve just completed my notes from the session with Phil. I’m scared about next moves. I’m really happy to have a bit of break. it’s been so tiring and stressful dealing with both my mom and the fallout from unrequited love with A. Agggghh, idon’t know whether i feel sad or angry or just numb. right now just numb. I did a bit of the tapping exercise and it helped but really i think i just wanted to stay in bed all day. And I didn’t have much of a workout so I don’t really feel good today. I’m heading to meet brother in law Alan and have lunch with him, looking forward to it. I spoke to my aunt and that really helped. It irritated me that she asked how I’m doing without really waiting for a response, i hate when people do that, if you really want to know how i’m doing fucking wait for an answer or give emotionally, not just fucking take.

I clearly have some anger work to do. maybe some yelling in the car.

Im off now to the greek area and I’m going to call P and find out how he’s doing.