It’s been a really long time since I posted. A lot has happened. In November I went to a treatment center for binge eating disorder. It was a lovely experience, I was there for 5 weeks and I stayed with the community and had many sessions with therapists, nutritionists, sound healers, yoga, gym instructors, and most of all the experience in the residences of the community, were I cooked for myself and spent the days and nights when not in the treatment center.
I really miss it , I was abstinent and I was eating right and I lost a lot of weight just from not bingeing. When I came back in Dec 17th, I was clean for a few days but alas I went back to the bingeing . I did some EMDR, which was powerful but very difficult and draining while at the treatment center. Hoped to continue it when I came to montreal but I got caught up with work life depression and sickness. I got the flu for the last 2 weeks. And I went back to bingeing, I gained back some of the weight that I lost and I don’t feel great about that. My place is chaotic and a mess. Today was a good day, I woke up abstinent from binge eating and sugar/flour. I slept on the couch but I woke up early and then decided to go to the gym and then I came to Starbucks to complete some work, I am very grateful, it’s going very well. I have a problem with overspending and debting, I bought many things I can’t afford. Like recently I bought another phone that costs $1200, a soundbar for the TV and I subscribed to Netflix, disney plus and paramount. I am willing to attend debtors anonymous now. I have been working with 2 therapists. One is traditional and a drama therapist and the other is somatic therapist. So far it’s so good. I am trying to get in touch more with my authentic self.
Okay I’m bored of being at the Starbucks. Bye.
