2 way prayer thank you god

I did my 2 way prayer today and shared it with the group. I can’t find the page I did the writing on . I’m already tired, woke up at 1am, had a few cups of coffee , I also went to the gym and I share at the FAA 545 am meeting. And that was nice. Feel sleepy now. I setup the desktop for one of the guys at Derrig, made me feel very hopeful. Gosh I feel very sleepy now. Horrible conditions in parts of Somalia. Somaliland is good though. Payment guy ceo is treated like a rockstar in the community but why.

Went to gym , cardio. soo sleepy, can I sleep?

weight gain, bingeing, loneliness and despair

Dear God, thank you the binge wasn’t worse God, thank you and I need help God. The weight gain is so bad. I feel scared and shame and anger with myself and for those asking me questions about my abstinence, shut the fuck up. I don’t want to feel worse about myself by analyzing this behaviour. I fucking hate that going into the food is what I do night in and night out I’m scared God of ballooning and struggling under the weight of debting and not making enough overspending.

My dear dear sweet boy. Have not heard from you in a while little one. It’s okay my sweet. You are feeling intense pain and loneliness little one. Let go of the weight for now. Focus on a night of blissful abstinence. Good for you on scheduling a 5th for Sunday, we are so thrilled of your willingness to do the 4th, let go of the fear, negativity and toxicity little one. It’s happening beautifully and magically and fine and we love you so so very much.

Love God