I took my medication today. Thank you god. Last night during my binge I felt so gross I felt so uncomfortable..so angry of having to work and hating calling customers. So very angry. Called Pallavi and we read big book and I shared I feel like shit absolute shit and it's where I'm at. I hate myself and I fucking hate others..people who have it together. Fuccck them. So angry, so tired.
Inner child isolation, learning to trust and get out there.
Adult learning to stop action, and listen and embrace spontaneity
Sugar drunk today. Feel diabetic eyes are so tired and itchy.
Fuck everyone. Made some good breakfast abstinent now. Rice and chicken and beans from swaraj so very grateful. Following FAA food plan. Joel olsteen helpful today. Giving of myself. Acting like a miracle for others. God gives strength as we give others our strength and love. Nice message. It works.
I don't know how the fuck I survived work. So angry and just wanted to get the fuck out of there.
So good to get a paycheck and cover the rent this month. Lovely.
2 days of rest thank you god
Scared about bank account dwindling on business side.
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