I don’t know where to begin. Fat bloated, irritated, hungover. Trying my best to stay with God. Feel everyone is against me today. Caretake mom feelings, told her I don’t want anything my life is here. I need to change. I must be careful of what I say. It’s horrible. I’m so tired. Tired of holding on, tired of everything, god please help me.

I took care of birds today and I was so happy to get into the cage and help put up the nice stick and feed them and get out of there. I’m okay this will pass. I told Anoop, hey I got your refills and I didn’t touch them so it’s safe. I’m going to be okay. Feel very bad about mom, I just don’t know what to say or do anymore. We are both so fragile.