Dear God, HP, if you’re there. Thank you for the
guidance yesterday to be abstinent God. Thank you for the men’s meeting and
being able to share and connect last night. I had a hard time with step 3 an I shared
and a fellow told me that spirituality is a direct connection to you. Versus religion
which is man made. I’m scared God, so very scared. It’s so very very hard to
see a way out of supporting myself in this place or any other place if this
place sells. I am resentful because I have to keep this place clean and sterile
but I don’t know how to do it. I keep cluttering it up and I keep regressing in
to food and in life. I feel despair not knowing how to change and adapt. I just
don’t know. Will you please help me out dear God.
My
dear sweet sweet boy. I know little one, I know liebshing it’s so very hard to
get on your feet and it gives us great pain to see you in despair and killing
yourself with food bingeing and low self eseem and body image . we want to hug
and kiss you and tell you that all will be well and to hang in there my sweet
boy. This too shall pass. WE don’t have the answers or a vision for you little
one, that is in you deep inside. We know you can let it out. We only want you
to be free little one just be free, free of shame and guilt and low self worth
we want you to see yourself as we see you . A confident, gentle strength,
filled with passion, spirit , adventure and capability. We know you are this because
we see it little one. 😊 Hang in there my dear
sweet boy, hang in there little one. You don’t have to be a “failure” or a “phoney”
WE know your worth an d you will always be a shining gold star in our eyes just
as every being is. Hang in there my sweet boy, do the work just apply for jobs
it will be okay. We are not worried about you little one, because we see a way
out. Do not despair little one, do not despair my sweet sweet boy, do not
despair.
