Dear dear dear sweet God, thank you for your help today and last night. I am so grateful to have more work , this wonderful new place , the blinds, and to have food in the fridge. Thank you god thank you. This too shall pass, the pain I feel with the stomach I don’t take it lightly god, I know it won’t go away till I see a doctor and I’m scared.it’s so very hard to get a blood test god, so very hard, 4 months without paying, what the heck happened to the Canadian health care system. I was so spoiled and took so much for granted all those years I could get treatment the same day when I was working the fancy corporate job.
God, I’m so scared I can’t cry, I can’t grieve I have so much anger, so much anger so much rage. I know behind the anger is the sadness and grief, please help me tap into the tears. Please help me with the bingeing , the sex addiction, the debating, and all the other ways I abandon myself and am self destructive. Im so very tired god, please please please help me God, I don’t feel like even trying sometimes.
Dearsest sweet sweet little boy. Help yourself little one, breath my love take deep breaths and let it go. Close your eyes and breath. I’m here for you, the universe that’s me. The self compassion group that’s me little one. Just be good to yourself my love, just be good to yourself little one. I love you so very much. You are worthy of love and respect. For yourself and others. Keep praying little one for the people you meet, for the people you love and for the people you have a problem with or the people that hurt you. I love you so very much.
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